berthota!!

berthota,shudhui amar berthota
shomoyer shongkhiptota
bujhe uthte na para
obolilay shobkichu diye deyata
aar sharthoporota
berthota, shudhui amar berthota

bhul chilo amar obhiman
bhul chilo haal chere deya
bhul chilo tomake bhalobasha
bhul chilo amar neerobota
berthota, shudhui amar berthota

nishproyojon amake bhalobasha
nishproyojon amake shantona
nishproyojon amar proshongsha
nishproyojon amar jeebonta
berthota, shudhui amar berthota

cheyechilam bojhate amake
cheyechilam bojhate tomakeo
bojhate cheyeo parini
karon, shobi amar berthota
berthota, shudhui amar berthota

e bertho jeebon niyee
khono jeebon prodeep jaliye rekhechi
je kono muhurte
nibhe jete pari ami
nibhe jete pare amar berthota...

kosto debe kosto??!!

ei toh.abar shob kichu nosto hoye gelo.kar dosh?amar?na woh'r?.hoyto amar,hoyto woh'r..janina.kintu ekta jinish jani,jotokkhon porjonto woh na kotha bolbe,ami woh'r sathe ar kotha bolte parbo na.keno koro emon?.ya,hoyto kichu vul korechi.mene nilam.kintu tumake jiggas kore toh niyechilam.na bole toh jai ni.keno ato kosto dao?.konodin vebecho,isit fair to me?.han onek kharap chilam.kintu akhon kotto chesta korchi,tumi jano na?.bujho na?.ami hi5 cancel kore diyechi.ar dorkar nei.ato jamela valo lage na.jani,u r stil nt satisfied.its nv enuf na?.han,bolecho,jedin phire ashbe,sheidin o kosto debe.shara jibon kosto diye jabe.dao!kintu,emon kore kosto deo na, ja ami deserve kori na.aage dosher jonne joodi aro dao,kicchu bolbo na.dekhle na,kal tumar baiya'r shamne amake insualt korle,kicchu boli ni.karon,hoyto some hw i deserve it.

jani hokh,tumar wadha rakhbe,amake ekta chance diyecho.sheitai ek matro asha.ar kicchu nei.shobai toh shukh cai,tai na?.tumi cao,ami cai,keu jodi eita pore thake akhon,se o cay..kintu amar shukh dorkar nei ato..jodi caitam onek shukh,tahole tumar kach theke onek aggei chole jetam.bk in oct.kintu na,jabo na.karon amar shukh cai na.baas tumake cai.jibon eh kono ek din.taholei hobe.er por kosto dao,na shukh dao,tumar bepar.keno ato baler valobashi?.keno ei crocodile tears feli?..keno ato kharap ami?.

jani khusi acho.khusi thako.bishash koro,aage jani na,kintu akhon tumar shukh cai..kintu shesh porjonto amar ekta jinish i cai,tumake..shukh na tumar kach theke,na tumar valobasha.tumake konodin pelei amar hobe..i swr!!jano,aaj onekdin por akhash dekhchilam.khub shundor lagchlo.ato nil chilo na.kintu mone hocchilo,tumake peyechi onek kache amar.aage mone ache,tumar barir' pashe jokhon proto sat n sun teh jetam bikel balay,tokhon du jone mile akash dekhtam..ar jokhon upore cheye,abar niche chokh nitam,tumake pashe dekhte petam.buke joriye dortam.aajo mone korchilo jokhon akhasher dikhe takai.kintu voy hocchilo.jokhon niche takabo,tumi pashe thakbe na ar..tumar bukhe matha rekhe,vishon kadte icche korchilo.akhono korche.kintu tumi toh nei.jani amar doshe.kintu akhon toh kichu kori na.ektu kothai toh boltam.tumake caini toh til tumar parents raji hoy.brishti,amar vishon kosto hocche jano.tumar kosom!!amake ektu boko na?..

amar ar keu nei..tumi sheidin bolchiole na,tumar living diary toh ar nei,tai blog koro.kintu,tumar toh shoabi ache akhon.amar keu nei..tai akhon ami blog kori.khub hashi pacche na?.du bepare amake niye hasccho hoyto.ek:baiya ke niye bolcho,dekh ei shala kivabe baler valoobasha dialouge mare..dui;mone mone hoyto khusi hoccho shahed onek kosto pacche.he deserve it....janina kontta.kintu jodi heshe thako,hoyto valoi hoccche.ar jodi amar dukkho bujhe thako,baas ekbar amake maaf kore deo akhon.ektu kotha bolo.jodi amar sathe kotha abar bhondo korecho,kal er jonne.ami kichhu kori ni without ur nod!na konodin korbo.wadha!!..kosto debe aro?dao!!ami soye nebo.baas tumar wadha guli rekho as u have given me one mre chance.tumar bf hobar hoyto kono quality nei ar,kintu future tumar jibon shongi hobar shob quality amar thkabe.inysallah..i wil work for it!!!

kuch paal!!

some memories nvr dies..tai na?..we had alot of memories together....well,mostly,erm..koster?..bt somehw,kichu kichu memories akhono ache,ja mone porle,ei muhurte shei somoye chole jete iccha kore...

4th sept06- we first met...one old lady was tellin us'we guys are very compatible'...n i was lik 'eewww''whos is gonna lik her?n she was lik'pleaseee..nooooo''...haha..

8th sept06- amra harbour front eh dekha kori...before her tution..riteee..woh tutuion eh porte jeto na bok bok korte jeto,ke jane?.

21st sept06- amra mcrithichte jai..trust me,i had to go thro alot before tt..ishh...sheidin prothom woh salwar porechilo..white.hmm...akhono choke beshe uthche as i am wirting..hahaz..

29thsept06- woh amake prothom nature park niye jay..man!!tt was near arnab's hse...vaggish beche gechilam sheidin!!jai hokh,tt place later became 'regular dating place'hahah..frm dec to march only..lolz..

30th sept06- woh'r bashar pashe jai dekha korte...sat chilo...woh red color pore chilo..n me?as usual..'orange'',haha..woh ke prothom kiss kori..cheek tt iz..oh cumon!we were jst frens thn...jst wat was i thinking??tappor khele amar baro ta bachto..haha..luckily dey ni..goshhh..haha..

4thoct06- e day,which changed both pplz lyfs..well in a way for e bttr,in a way for e worse..ermm..two diffrent ppl,two diff lives,n thn on this day,two hearts starts beating together,under one sun...durr..ami besi boki..jai hokh,this was e startin of new lives!!

12th nov06-ermmm.....bttr nt mention..

4thdec06- woh ke niye dance kori nicoll highway'r pashe...woh;r betha korchilo...onek ksoto hocchili woh'r..kintu amar sathe chilo till 10...

31st dec06- eider din chilo.. jogra o chilo..eid mane khusi..ar sheidin amader jonne chilo eid mane jogra..hahah...anw,pore shob thik..phone e jotto jogra..kache ashlei shob thik..well most of e tyms..keno?any idea?phone eh besi virus thake,no?haha...pore ek sathe chilam til 12.30 am..as in new yr day!!sheidin woh;r diary dey porte..i think she tore sme pages..hmm..haha

2007???ermm oi bochor er kotha na bollei valo!!!han,onek shundor din giyeche,abar onek kharap din o....ttz lyf na?..welll.....jai hokh....

some songs tt remind me of those past:
1.mere haath main
2.ya ali
3. hey shona
4.toh phir aao
5.dhoom again
6.ek muhurte
7.khabi alvida na kehna
8.mitwa

ermm..aro ache onek kichu likbar..bt aaj ke..onno somoy....aaj ashi..bechra ami,ghumabo!!lolz..

JUDAI!!

Char dino ka pyaar o rabba
Lambi judai lambi judai

Char dino ka pyaar o rabba
Lambi judai lambi judai

Tere bin dil mera lage kahin na
Tere bin jaan meri jaye kahin na
Kitne zamane baad o rabba
Yaad tu aaya, yaad tu aaya

Aaaaa….aa..aaaaaaaa….

Khoya raha mein, saason mein apne
Aahat bhi teri, bhool gaya mein
Kitna jeeya hoon tanha raho hoon
Ishq tera bhool gaya hoon

Khoya raha mein, saason mein apne
Aahat bhi teri, bhool gaya mein
Kitna jeeya hoon tanha raho hoon
Ishq tera bhool gaya hoon

Uljha raha mein is zindagi mein
Dil ki duhai dil ki duhai

Tere bin dil mera lage kahin na
Tere bin jaan meri jaye kahin na
Kitne zamane baad o rabba
Yaad tu aaya, yaad tu aaya

Ohhh rabbaa.. rabbaaa..
aaaaaaaaaaaa….

Har bebasi mein, is zindagi ne
Tujh ko hi chaha, tujh ko hi manga
Jin raston se guzra yeh dil tha
Manzil mili na pyaar na paya

Har bebasi mein, is zindagi ne
Tujh ko hi chaha, tujh ko hi manga
Jin raston se guzra yeh dil tha
Manzil mili na pyaar na paya

Khud ko chupake rahon se guzre
Dil ko sambhle dil ko sambhle

Tere bin dil mera lage kahin na
Tere bin jaan meri jaye kahin na
Kitne zamane baad o rabba
Yaad tu aaya, yaad tu aaya.....

loveeeeee this song!!!!was listening ot it e whole dayy..tumar valo lage toh brishti??i hope soooooo!!!durr!!!amar ar amar hope.....its useless na?..err....shut up shaheddddd!!!!!hahaz..arent yu gonna say tt nw??hehez...anw ami ghumai...aaj o woh tariye dilo msn theke..well,get used to it shahed!!yea?..

aaj o mone pore!part 2.1!!

ei toh..er por...shob shesh?.tai na?!!..hmm..hoyto..kintu hothay ache na?'shotti karer valobasha khokhono shesh hoy na''...oi du joner janina,tobe brishti'r khetre tai hoyeche...woh'r valobasha shesh hoy ni...in fact,er por,aro bereche..tobe han,tader moddhe shob doroner shomporko shesh hoye jay..shob...shob shopno,shob asha,shob shotti,shob cawa..shob kichu shesh hoye jayy... brishti choke hashi chilo na,shudui koster jol!!protidin kadto se..ki na korechilo ei shahed'r jonne..shob kichu..poro prithibi chere diyechilo..akhon diye ache..tar pashe keu nei..keu tar kanna shunte pay na..kauke bujhay na..keu tar chokh,shahed'r moton bujhje na..aage tar kosot holei,shahed ke bolto,ba tar chokh dekhlei shahed bujhe jeto..ar aaj,shei shahed nei...ache.han ache..woh'r buker modde..woh'r protita nishaseh eh..kintu,tar pashe nei..keno korlo emon shahed?keno ei mithha bolllo se?naki woh'r valobasha o mittha?ki korbe brishti akhon?kivabe shotti ber korbe eibar?...

ar shahed?oi dikehe woh,nijer vul ke chapa dite koto kichui na koreche ekdin..kintu tar shotto toh ber hoye asche..woh toh jane,woh'r valobasha shotti..han,hoyto chorom ekta mithha boleche,kintu,woh'r valobasha je shotti,sheita kivabe bujhabe akhon?brishti ke phone kore,se dore na..woh;r barite phone korleo dore na..woh ke khub opoman kore...khub kosto hoy shahed'r...vishon..kintu pore mone pore jay je woh ja koreche,ta ki thik chilo?kivabe brishti'r shamne mukh dekhabe se?kivabe tar bukhe joriye dore rakhbe?brishti ki khokhono phire ashbe?

ei vabe cholte thake somoy..din er por din jete thake..ek mash porer kotha!!!..ta der abar dekha hoy..ei bar changi airport!!brishti'r bhandobir'r ma ashche bdesh theke..brishti oikhane chilo..shahed jor kore dekha korbe bolchilo..actullay brishto'r o dekhte iccha korchilo shahed ke..jake protidin dekhto,take ek mash dekhte pare ni,onek koste chilo brishti..kintu shei sathe raag o chilo vishon..kintu valobasha raager thekeo beshi chilo tar mone..tai shahed ke dekhte raji hoy..abar dekha du joner..shahed brishti'r choke chokh rekhe kotha bolchilo na..khub voy hocchilo tar..tobu o woh ke joriye dore kadte iccha korchilo..atto din er kosto,shesh korte iccha korchilo..kintu kon mukhe woh ke dorbe abar?.. ar brishti?..woh shob somoy'r moton aaj o ''confused''....ek bar mone hocchilo,shahed ke dore mere felte,ekbar mone hocchilo,woh ke dore,khub kadte,woh'r kach theke uttor caite..keno emon korle shahed?keno?.

sheidin dekhar por,aro koiek bar dekha hoy dujoner..kintu,brishti ar shei rokom feel korto na ja aage korto..shahed ke bujhto na arr..woh'r shob kothay mittha lagto..ar shahed?woh kichu korte geleo,doshi hoye jeto..kono kichu thik jachcilo na ar..tobu o dore rekhechilo shahed ar brishti..mon diye..ei tai beche chilo...ei vabei din ar mash kete jay...brishit'r porikkhao agute thake..jar jonne,brishti aro bodle gechilo...shahed ke aro dure fele diyechilo..kintu shahed bujheni...shahed tokhono oi shopno puri teh chilo..kinti broishti?ar chilo na shopne..jege uhechilo..shotto ke dekhchilo...kintu shaed parchilo na..shei jonne du joner modder aro kharap hote thake shob shomporko..untill one day...............

oi ta next bar likbo..part2.2??hahaz..amar mood nei arr...

aaj o mone pore!part 1

ek din, dupurbela shahed ek ojana number theke ek msg pelo

''hi, how are ya?''

shahed thik bujte parlo na ke oi manushta...tai se reply korlo

''i'm fine..who r u?''

kichukhon por reply ashlo

''gadha!!..amake vule gele?''

shahed tokhonei bujhte parlo j sheta brishti'r msg chilo.. actually shahed kichuta reege'o chilo tar upor..atodin ekebare lapate thakar jonno kintu oor msg pawar por kothai jeno shob raag paliye gelo..aste aste abar shuru hoy tader kotha..brishti taake protidin school theke bari ferar pothe phone korto..bus'a time pass korar jonno..aste aste shahed'er sathe kotha bolte brishti'r valo lagte shuru korlo..oo akhon shahed k time pass korar jonno phone korto naa..korto karon tar sathe kotha bole kamon jeno ekta khushi'r mela boshto brishti'r moone..tara aste aste bondhu hishebe aro ghonisto hoye uthe..sharadin sms cholte thake r shara raat phone'a kotha..india te life kamon chilo, bangladesh kamon, chelebelar shob golpo, shopno..jibon kahini..dujon e sheeter vor khub pochondo korto..kuasha dhaka rasta..shishir veja ghashe haata, chader upore giye boshe thakte thakte kuasha vanga shurjo uthte dekha, thanda batash..abar shoroter kashful, kochi dhankhet, akashe megher mela..erom kotto ki..prithibir shob kichu niye kotha hoto oder..oder shomporkota naa chilo kono premik premikar, naa bondhutto..naa bhai bon..jaa e thak naa keno, chilo onek shundor..tokhon dujon dujon ke ek barer jonno o bastobe dekhini..baas phone kotha hoto..r sms korto aake oporke..shahed' re bondhura taake sharakkhon phone'a pore thakte dekhe taake khepato..adeeke brishti'r bondhura o vabto j brishti shahed'er preme poreche kintu bastob ei chilo j brishti shahed k niye kokhono erokom dhoroner cinta shopneo korini..brishti tar bondhuder kotha uriye dito.."are u mad or something? oor moto ram chagoler preme ami porbo? dher!"

r shahed..o shotti briti k onno vabe pochondo korto..ekbar she kotha brishti k bolechilo o kintu brishti bolechilo j tader moddhe j shomporkota ache sheta she noshto korte chaina..tachara bristi'r dharona chilo j eshob valobasha talabasho tar dara shomvob naa..valobasha onek koshto dei r brishti ei koshto mene neete raazi noi..haa, shahed'er sathe hoyto tar kotha bolte khub valo laage kintu tar pechone ektai karon..shahed taake khub bojhe r tar khub valo ekta bondhu she..shahed brishti'e decision meene nei r tar por a niye r ektibar o kotha bole naa..

ekta ekta kore din chole jete thake..tarpor ekdin ashe jokhon dujon dujon ke khub dekhte chai..vabte thake j k ei manushti jar sathe ato kotha hoy..j ato kom shomoye jiboner ato boro ekta ongsho hoye gache..

ek mas porer kotha...shahed ar brishti'r jiboner prothom shakkhat..4th sept 2006...ei din shahed tar ''anonna'' ke prothom dekhe..tar haath dhore..bondhu hishebe..bukit batok mrt station'a wait korchilo shahed...haathe lal ronger kono golap chilo na..chilo du'to science'er note...brishti' r jonne anechilo..shei karonei aaj dekha..brishti' r shamne porikkha r tar science'er note dorkar chilo..shahed bolechilo j tar kache note ache..eta brishti'r sathe dekhe korar ekta ojuhat o bola jai..shahed brishtike prochond dehte cheyechilo.. brishti o hoyto cheyechilo taake dekhte..dur theke brishti shahed k dekhte pai..vabte thake to ei shei gadha..nt bad huh..tokhon shahed'er sathe tar mobile'a kotha hocchilo..bristhi taake bole

"ami bod hoy tomake dekhte pacchi"

shahed adik odik takiye dekhe..koi keu e to nei..tarpor raastar opasher traffic junction'a dekhe..brishti k dekhte pai..brishti neel shari neel tip pora kono meye chilo naa..chilo ekta black tee shirt pora singapore'r oti shadharon meye..kintu tar choke mukhe bangaliotter ekta ava..mobile phone'a tar shate'e kotha bolte bolte rasta par hocchilo.. to ei shei meye?

shahed: kemon acho?
bristi: valo..tumi?
shahed: valoi..to tumi hoccho shei chagli'ta..nt bad!
bristi: ar tumi hoccho ei gadha? very bad!!

ei kotha bole dujon'e heshe dilo..dujonei vishon nevous feel korchilo..tobu' o normail vabe thakbar prochondo chesta korchilo..du' jon ei black porchilo..what a coincidence! note dewa sesh..akhon bari jabar pala..shahed besh dure thakto bukit batok theke kintu brishti thakto ekdam kache. tar bari jabar pothe'e shahed'er bus stop..cheleta atodur theke eshche jokhon, tokhon note niye e chole jawa thik hobe naa..ei vebe brishti shahed'er sathe tar bus'er jonno opekkha korte korte golpo korte thaklo..shahed icche kore char-pach ta bus miss korlo..basically shahed'er oi somoy ta vishon valo lagchilo..brishti' r mone hocchilo se akhon calcutta'te ache..ar shahed vabchilo se akhon dhaka'te..singapore amon vaba khub kom hoy karom ekhane bengali khub kom r jara bengali tara beshir vag ektu western minded..but shahed r brishti ekdam erom chilo naa..tara hoyto singapore'er manusher sathe uthto boshto but monta sharakhon nijer nijer jonmovumite pore thakto..anyway, bus'er jonno opekkha korte korte ek ghonta par hoye jai..er moddhe ekta mojer kando ghote..bus stop'a darano ekta buri oder dujonke hashte hashte golpo korte dekhe oderke eshe bole j oder dujonke ekshate khub shundor manai..brishti to vishon lojja pai she buritake bujhiye bolte chai j tader moddhe orom dhoroner kono shomporko nei kintu burita bissash korena..tar por dujon nijer nijer barfi chole jai..sathe niye jai khub shundor koyekti muhurter sriti..

er por tader bondhutto diner por din aro govir hote thake..arekbar dekha o hoy er moddhe. tarpor ekdin brishtir khub mon kharap chilo..india khub miss korchilo she..majhe majhe keno jani amni amni khub faka faka lage brishti'r nijeke..khub kadte icche kore..orokom' e ekta khub mon kharap korano din chilo sheta. shahed brishti'k bole tar sathe shedin dekha korte..brishti' r khub pochonder ekta lake ache..brishti shekhane jete chailo mon kharap dur korar jonno..shahed raji..she shahed brishti'r kache ekta onurodh kore..brishti jeno salwar pore ashe..tai holo..

shahed bus stop'a boshe brishti'r jonno opekkha korte korte tar sathe phone'a kotha bolche..tarpor ek shomoy brishti bus theke namlo..

shada salwar..kadhe shada ekta bag..shob kichu matching kore pora..khub shundor lagchilo taake..brishti' r chokh duto shahed'er vishon pochonder chilo..oo vabto j brishtir' chokher moddhe onek golpo lukiye..onek onuvob, ja brishti mukhe kauke bolto naa ta oor chokh dekhle bojha jeto..shedin lake'a onek kotha holo tader..brishti shahed k tar choto belar golpo bolte laglo..shahed' er ekta jinish khub valo lagto..she brishti'r porti kotha khub mon diye shunto, moone rakhto..shahed' er sathe kotha bolar por tar mon oonek halka hoye galo..shedin brishti'k mon kharap thakte dekhe shahed'er vishon icche korchilo brishti ke joriye dore bolte ''ei brishti, ami tumake vishon valobashi'' kintu brishti jodi abar naa kore dei..''na''shunbar shokti nei r shahed'er..shahed nijeke shamle ney..moone moone icche korte thake tar brishti'r shod koshto niye neete..prithibi' r shob dukkho theke taake lukiye rakhte..

shahed shedin tar diary brishti'k porte diyechilo..sunanda (shahed'er ex-girlfriend) ..shei sunanda'k niye shahed ei diary likhechilo.. jokhon oi meyetir sathe tar shomporko chilo..

bari ferar pothe brishti tar shob cheye priyo bondhur prem kahini porte thake..khub shundor kore shahed sunanda'r proti tar onuvob, vabna, cinta gulo vashai rupantorito korechilo..pore brishti'r keno jani hingsha holo..shahed naa taake valobashe? tahole sunanda'k niye keno likhlo? brishti keno tar jiboner prothom prem hote parlo naa?

shob vabte vabte hothat tar moone holo..dher ami shahed'k valobashi naaki j ami eta niye ato worked up hocchi?? na na..ta keno hobe..bari feere brishti eta niye vabte laglo..shahed' k ki o valobashe naaki shudu'e vishon vishon vishon valo ekta bondhu hishabe dekhe? naah..she eshob valobasha'r moddhe nei..r shahed'er sathe tar shomporko'ta sto shundor j prem-valobasha er kache tuccho..

hashi, kanna, ojana ek valobasha, dustumi, fazlami, kichuei ovab chilo na...protita raathe kotha hoto..je din kotha hoto na, shahed valo kore ghumate parto na..she valobashe brishtike..vishon valobashe..tar chokh, tar kotha, tar chelemanushi, tar kontho, tar paglami, tar shob kichu..bachbe na shahed ei meyetake chara..kintu brishti'o ki arom feel kore tar jonne??na, brishti ek shopner moton..ja bastober rup konodin hoyto dharon korbe naa..ta shahed kivabe hote dei? shahed'er onek iccha kore brishti ke shob kichu khule bolte..kintu jodi se chole jay? shahed'er kotha shune jodi she tar shathe kotha bondho kore dei? ei voye shahed taake kichu bolena..

adeeke brishti'o ek confusion'a poreche..tar shob bondura bole se naki shahed'a valobashe kintu brishti ta bisshas kore na..kintu keno arom lage tar? keno protita somoy shahed'er voice shunte iccha kore? keno shahed'er sathe kotha bolle tar shob priyo manushder oor moddhe khuje pai? ki ache shahed'er moddhe? brishti ki shotti shahed'k valobashe naa eta taar shudhu matro ekta kolpona?

ekdin brishti'k shahed bole j oor blood cancer..kothata jeno brishti vishon koshto pai..ato shundor manush ato taratari moore jabe? shahed'er jonno khub koshto hoy tar..r shahed brishti'r jibon theke chole gele..brishti' k e ba hashabe k..tar pashe k shob shomoy darabe..tar mon kharap'er dinguloke k dure shoriye debe? brishti eshob vebe vishon kanna kore..shahed taake onek shantona dei kintu brishti ki shona banda? naa..brishti onek kadte thake..bujhte paare j she shahed'k onek valobashe kintu a valobasha ki shudu ekta bondhu vebe naa oono kichu ta she sthir korte parenaa..hoyto she shahed'k nejer ojante bondhur theke aro kichu hishebe valobeshe feleche kintu akotha she shahed'k konodin jante debena..karon she bondhon'a bedhe thakte chaina..brishti shadhin jibon pochondo kore..akash chowa shopno tar..ure ure berai..nijer icche moto chole, ja khushi tai kore..protita din nijer jonno bache. er majhe she kivabe onno ekjonke jorabe? kintu she jaane j shei muhurte she shahed'k khushi dekhte chai..kamon jeno ekta jaler moddhe feshe jai she..kon deeke jabe vebe painaa..

brishti'k khub manush bojhe tar moddhe ekjon hocche nisha. shahed'er bapare brishti thik kamon feel korto ta nisha janto..ekdin brishti shahed'er sathe, tokhon nisha phone kore..

nisha: hey! ki korchish?

brishti: ei to..shahed'er sathe

nisha: o ki jaane tor feelings'er kotha?

brishti: pagol naaki? shahed'k kicchu bolbo naa.

shahed oder conversation shone. shune barbar jiggash korte thake ki shei jinish j o jaane naa..o to brishti shomporke protita choto boro jinish jaane tahole ki amon holo ja ooke brishti janabe naa? brishti bolte chaina..shahed onek jor korte thake..tarpor ek shomoy brishti taake bole j kichudin pore bolbo..er moddhe shahed jante pare j brishti kauke valobashe r sheta e taake bolbe..kintu shahed shopneo cinta korena j cheleta she neejei..she vaabe j brishti onno ekjonke valobashe..tai jiboner sesh barer moton she brishti'ke bole j she taake valobashe..brishti a kothar kono uttor dei naa..din chole jai r ekdin shahed'k shei cheleta k sheta bolar din eshe jai.

shahed oppekkha korchilo bristi'r jonne nature park'a..brishti' r ashar kotha chilo dupur 12 tai..bt as usual shedin'o she deri kore ashe..shahed' er moone shudhu ektai proshno..ke oi cheleta je brishti ke tar kach thke dure niye jabe? tarpor 12.35'a brshti ashe..vishon nervous she..shahed ta bujhte pare tobu o aaj cheletar nam na jene se bari jacche na..onekkhon haathbar por tara ek sirir upor boshe..tarpor shahed abar jiggash kore brishti ke cheletar bepare...brishti bolte chacchilo na ekdam...shahed' er mon ektu hochot khai..vabe cheleta o naato? tachara kenoi ba woh ato nervous hobe..tarpor tara guessing game khelte thake..shahed ektar por ekta cheler name bolte thake..kintu brishti bole na kichu..shahed or choker dike takay..brishti' o takai...shahed tar ans peye jai..tar choke shahed'r name lekha chilo..

er por theke oder prem kahini cholte thake..jhogra, hashi, kanna meshano..proti shonibar shahed'er treatment thakto..brishti shob shomoy shahed'k bolto j tar khub voy laage shahed taake chere chole jabe. shara prithibi theke aste aste dure shore jai brishti. jibon niye onek serious hoye othe. shahed k chara she kichui bojhe naa..j meye karo sathe kono shomporko gorte chaini she kauke ato valobashte pare kivabe? majhe majhe brishti ei vebe obak hoto..she shahed k onek beshi valo beshe fele. kono motei shahed'k harate chainaa..Allah' r kach protitadin kadte thake, Allah jeno tar kach theke shahed'k naa niye jai..proti friday roja kore. shahed taake bole j tar treatment kaj korchena..ei niye brishti'r lekhapora affected hoy, nijeke kamon jeno baniye fele she..aka..brishti shohoje kanna korena..vishon koshto naa hole tar chokh diye pani ber hoynaa..shahed er shob e janto..brishti proti ta saturday jokhon shahed treatment'a jeto, onek jore jore kanna korto phone'er moddhe..jokhon shahed tar sathe vishon durbol konthe kotha bolto..raater por raat nirghum chokhe vabte thakto j she shahed chole gele bachbe kivabe..brishti' r liver'er problem chilo. she doctor'er kache jetonaa karon she bachte chaini shahed'k chara. shahed ei niye taake besh koyekbar bokaboki kore kintu brishti kono kotha shunte raji noi. evabe din jete thake..ekta ekta kore 8 months par hoye jai..

tarpor ekdin brishti jante pare j shahed'er kono cancer nei..she tar sathe mittha boleche..shahed' k a niye proshno kore kintu shahed eta oshikar kore r bole j she brishti'k report dekhabe..kintu din jete thake report'er kono patta nei..tarpor ekdin brishti khub reege jai..she shahed k bole j she jodi report naa dekhai, tahole brishti tar sathe kotha bolbenaa. shahed kono upay naa dekhe taake shotti bole dei..tar kono cancer nei..

brishti'r mathai jeno akash venge pore..ei karoner jonno e naa ei shomporko shuru hoy? brishti naa shahed'er shamne jore jore kade she chole jabe tai? brishti naa doctor porjonto dekhai naa she shahed k chara bachte chai naa tai? she jokhon kanna korto tokhon ki shahed'er ektu koshto hoyni? sharthoporer moton taake diner por din..raater por raat kadiyeche? okarone..ekdam okarone? a kamon valobasha tar? eke to valobasha bolena? valobashar maane to shathoporota noi..valobasha maane nijeke vule jawa..tainaa? tahole shahed ki taake valobashini? 8 ta mash tar sathe cholona kore gache? proti saturday mittha ovinoy kore gache? jar jonno brishti prithibir shob anondo..shob khushi vule gache she kina tar sathe ato boro bissashghatokota korlo? shahed khub valo kore janto j brishti prithibite shon theke beshi mitthukder opochondo kore..shob jeneo erom korte parlo? suicide korte icche korlo tar..kintu naa, she janto atto hotta korle Allah taake konodin maaf korbena..tai taake bachte baddho hote holo..shahed k chara..akdam aka..she kono mitthuk'er sathe ek second o thakte parbenaa kintu taake chara e ba bachbe kivabe? a ki shomvab? jaake she nijer jiboner theke beshi valobashe gache..jaake chara tar ek muhurto beche thaka koyokdin aage oshomvab chilo, taake chara kivabe she bachbe?

ami amader jbon er prothom theke likhi ni.baas important somoy guli tule dorechi.aro ache.let me write it.so til thn..gdbyeeee....

mone pore!

ei toh..kichu din agge matro..tumi shudu amar kolpona te chile..
kolpona?ei ta ki khokhono shotti hoy?kolpona toh shudui matro kolpona!!!..manush ja kolpona kore,ta sheikhanei theke jay..sheitai toh vabtam ami...
kintu naa..abar belay sheita gote ni..amar koplnar poritita muhurto ke ami bastobe dekhechi..tumake peye...tumar haate haat rekhe,tumar choke chokh rekhe,tumar kadhe matha rekhe,tumar shei hashir karon hote pere..
amar akhono mone pore shidin,jokhon ghum theke uthei amar phone dekhtam..'gd morning ar i love you'kothata na porle ba shunle ghum vangto na..shei ghumei thkate iccha korto...tumi je thakte shei shopne!!..kintu jokhon chokh mele tumar sms ba phone eh khonto shuntam,tokhon gumate icche korto na ar..police jemon chor dekhle palay,thik temni amar ghum o palato..abar arekta din tumar sathe!!
tumar haate haat rekhe gurte iccha korto shara prithibi..kono din dme jete iccha korto na...shopner shei prithibite hariye jabar jonne protidin ghum ashto choke..manush ghumay vebe je shopner prithibit kichukkhoner konne thkate parbe..karon bastober prithibi,shopner prithibi theke onek kothin!!shopner ptithibo ta bastober theke onek shundor!!kintu amar kache khokhon ta mone hoy tumake peye..ami basotbei shei shopner prithibi ke khuje petam..khuje petam shei shob asha,vorosha!!
han..ek somoy chilo...jokhon ami tumake hasate partam..jokhon amar khontho shunle tumi haste..jokhon amar khontho shunle tumar choker pani themhe jeto...jokhon amar pashe thakle tumi shara prithibi vule jete..ek kolponar prithibite hariye jete!!...
kintu aaj!!aaj abar bastobe phire ashte holo..shei kothin pribithi..shei kutshit shotto!!'TUMI NEI'..keno nei?karon onek kichui ache,,onek kichu...kintu shob theke mul karon holo'ei ta bastob,shopno noy'...vebchilam ghumiye shopno dekhle hoyto ekbar na ekbae shesh hoye jabe..karon ghum theke toh uthtei hobe..kintu bastober shopno,hoyto khokhono shesh hobe na..kintu na...vul chilam ami!!cul chile tumi!!shopno toh shopnoi!!!..sheita ekbar na ekbar venge jabei!!kintu rekhe jabe ek gada shriti!!ek gada,kosto,ek gada shukh,ek gada tumar valobasha!!!...
shei koishor jibon theke shuru kore,baronto joubon porjonto ridoy'r deyale aka ache koto sriti!kichu kichu sriti kosto dey,kichu kichu sriti shukh dey abar kichu kichu sriti shudu shei muhurte phire jete hathchani dey...tumar sriti shei ekta o noy..tumar sriti amar jonne sriti noy..tumar sriti amar jonne amar vobisshot!!amar cawa,amar pawa!!..tumar sriti amar proti diner jibon er ek shongi hoye ache..jake chara ek muhurto vaba jay na!!..onek kichu kori,shei sriti vule thakte..oneker sathe kotha,moja kori shei sriti vule thkate..kintu shei sriti guli,mone porei jay....tumi jabe na khokhono ei ridoy theke..tumi bolechile ek somoy,amar mon ta naki khub kalo!!han,sheitai hoyto thik...kintu ei kalo moner moddhe hoyto ek jaygai akhono ache ja tumi shob somoy cheyechile...ja akhono tumake shei shukh dite cay ja tmi shob somoy tumar kolpona te dekhte!!
janina khokhono parbo ki na tumar ei ridoy ke abar thik korte..kintu ayshob aka thaka aamar jonno noy..tai shob somoy chesta kore jabo tumar ridoy ke abar amar shei valobasha ja akhon ei kalo moner pashe ektu jayga teh beche ache,sheita tumake biliiye dite.allah;r kache chele jodi pahar porbot venge jete pare,tahole amar jei tuke valobasha ache,shei tuku diye tumake sharakkhon cheya jabo jotokkhon na tumi phire ashbe..chesta korle keu khali haate phire na,ami chesta kore jabo,tumake shei shopno purite abar phiryie ante..kintu ei shopno puri khokhono vangbe na..karon ei bar bastobke ami shundor kore tulbo!!ar tumi amar shopno ke!!.

paglami

Nijeke vengechure.. aabar venge, aabar gore tobei na akta sthir chhobi pawa jaay. Je chhobi shomosto shundor buke niye opolok takiye thakbe tomar dike.

Aachchha,tumi ke boloto ? Praner spondone jago…khilkhil heshe utho karone-okarone, haway vashiye dao chuler oronno..kakhono ba lajuk bodhur moto ornata tene nao mathar chhade..tirjok takao,,vrur draghimay aako ononto jiggasha…Aami buker tollat venge tomake chhoriye dei aakashe-batashe

Kakhono bishonno tumi.. kalo chokher mayay vor kore rajjer bishad…Mlan mukher protimay niye aasho klanto megh…Aamar valo lagena…Chinchine batha chhoriye pore mon theke moner ghore...Takhon aamar khub ichchhe kore tomake ektu chhuye dite..tumi shore jao drishtir shimana theke…Tomake pawa hoyna aamar…

Ghum vange..diner bashtotay chhute choli ekhane-okhane… Ojossro kajer vireo tumi thiki theke jao shopnomakha. .Edike-odike takai…aasha,jodi peye jai !!! Hothat kono durer pranto theke veshe aashe kontho tomar….ki khujo jubok ?

Aami elemelo hoye jete-jete boli…tomake

Tumi hashir jhorna chhoriye bolo…paglami !!!

Etuku paglami niyei "Buker aakash khule dariyechhi shunne…" Valobasha hobe naki porojonome ????

hi world of blog!!!!

hi world of blog!!!!
writhing a blog for e 1st tym..ermm..bt sadly,it wont be much abt myself tho..it wil be everytng abt 'her','us'..,janina..bt ya..ei blog eh,i wil write all my damn honest feelings,all our past,all our present!!so welcome to e world of boring love!!!hahaz..